We are all an amalgamation of the thoughts we think, the people we see, hear and speak to us.
Who are you? That is the question
Who am I?
I’m this weird awkward shy guy challenging the paradigm of what it means to be a fly guy
Who am I? A lost black boy traversing through this wonderful universe attempting to sign my name cursively on the dotted line of the endless wave of history
The books they will write about me, I dream of,
but after I tell them about myself
Who am I?
This combination of desperation, joy, and impatience
looking to explore the deeper meanings that life implores of me
Running away from responsibilities and recklessly carving my path as I try to do the math and divide the most fiscally stable means to get a bag
More often I stray from the path that leads me to greatness
Mostly because I’m clumsy and goofy,
Often sinking in the abyss of anxiety and depression that continues to coil like a boa around my body suffocating me within its grasp
As I feel that any breath could be my last I enjoy the lasting feeling that air brings.
Living in the moments I constantly pass
Like a train I’m supposed to be conducting
I swear, I’m not an idiot I just fuck up a lot
This is the skin I’m in as uncomfortable and exhilarating as it my seem
And I’m loving the transformations that have melded me and the experiences that make up my being
I’m asking can you feel me? I promise if you understand my plight then you’ve already seen the real me
So as I attempt to find these pieces of me and relish the powress of my soul
I scribe my world to you
Hopefully you’ll see this man has a heart of gold
Ive spent long nights trying to express my heart to the papyrus
And With that ink sinking, with all that deep thinking having me daydreaming I start to realize who is this man that keeps reaching
I fully understood that
I’m grounded by the amazing people that helped me create this mold
And it’s because of them that I finally reached that life I always believed in
I’m telling you, from the depths, I’m this coalition of confusion and love in a world where I have to be bold
Because those I’ve surrounded myself with won’t let me fold if you want a reason to believe nigga here it is
Who am I? I’m this…awkward young man.
Searching for spare change as I dare play this uncomfortable and unfair game of life. Saying fuck em to anybody that don’t know me,
I do anything I want, because that’s how my friends made me,
And I thank them everyday for how they helped me change things
Who am I? I’m Adonis Isaiah
Who are you?